i want out!

a note on a suiciadal tendency

i have been really depressed lately. sometime i wonder whether it ever ends? lost a good friend to cancer lately and another not that close but yet someone i knew in a week. headaches, sleepless nights, loss of concentration, dizzy & dim images at night while driving. i can feel it had crept within me.
not even wakebaording and going out on the water clears my head. i need winter to come wash all these away. i hope i get to meet the winter. well, someone said friends will be friends, when you are in need of love and affection. well mr. mercury, i have to say you really suck and you are way too optimistic. not even the ones that say they care about you and they love you will be friends once they see that you are a burdon, what you are is not what they expect or they are having fun somewhere else. they hardly remember you. i'm sure in a few months time they wouldnt even remember i have been there before.